Musings of the South

It was rainy...yeah that's an excuse, it was internal. The rain didn't help though. Maybe if I had listened to "I'm Only Happy When It Rains" by Garbage it would have been better. It just seemed to drag on to no end, moving in circles and going nowhere.

What can I say? Not much happened...a little car swapping...some donut buying......maybe I should eat one of those. Maybe not, I did just eat an entire bag of Dark Chocolate Nestles Flips. This has got to be at least in the top 3 of my most boring/having nothing to say type posts ever. So with that, I should go to bed...here's a little mind numbing poetry for you. Oh and while you're at it, check out Sia's cd "Some People Have Real Problems", it's a good one.

"Why" -

Burn
Burn down the heart of me
Stripped
Strip to the part of me
That prays to forget his face
Burning to forget the embrace
Etched upon my brain
Every day still driving me insane

Yeah I’ve got everything
I’ve got it all and I’ve got nothing
I ran the race, I cried my tears
I told him every single one of my fears
And this monster in my dreams
Used to sing me to sleep
What happened to these feelings?
What happened to my everything?

I’m walking this road alone
A shy little girl that has been overgrown
I feel these thorns digging into my side
More and more every night
I wonder what I could have been
I wish I was what I should have been
And I can’t remember his voice from the phone
I’m left with my thoughts, all alone

For heaven’s sake, just take it away
Remove from me the memory of my mistakes
Let me forget my fears
Help me to forget the snares
I so naively jumped into
When my heart was pounding just for you
Kissed it all goodbye

But I’ll never understand why

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"Yours" -

What is this on your lips?
The sting of poison and my stomach flips
I’m falling, yes I’m falling
I’ll never quit stalling
This runaway train is running me down
Your arms are full of violence and I bare the crown
I wore the ring and I’m like a baby crawling now
Learning my life again and this I vow
I’ll never forget you
Let the moonlight beset you
I’ll figure it out, how to be alive
Like I never lived before, been revived

Remove the knife from my back
I’ve got some stitches but the pain I lack
I’ve grown too tired of crying
I wont spend one more day for you dying
This is my time to mend
I wont think of this as the end
I’ve got someone to hold my hand
I’ve got someone to be my best friend

You took a bite like a disease
I flinched at first, but now at ease
It’s not lasting
It was just in passing
Some days sorry I met you
Wish I could forget you
But I’ll never forget what you taught me
I’ll never forget what I never again want to be…

Yours

// posted by Laura @ 9:36 PM 0 comments

Further Proof...

Aha! Further proof that the moon IS made of cheese and something (possibly Shoney's Big Boy) is eating it!!

I know what you're thinking.."What is wrong with her?" Well I'll tell you what boys and girls, it's 4:20am, that's what! I'm still up, drinking cherry coke and listening to Ciara and Brandy...OH and now "Lets Get Married" by Jagged Edge, oh yeah. Gotta love that.

Alright, so, I will be leaving for Florida in less than a week. I am so antsy about it, it's kind of funny. I just want everything to go well and I think it will. I'll be sure to take plenty of pictures for all the, what is it, 3 people that read this? Whatever, quality not quantity, I say!

I'm going to do something I haven't done in a very long time and post a few new writings of mine. None of them have anything to do with each other and may or may not reflect whatever you're thinking they are reflecting. Fun, huh? Yeah I like to think I'm playing mind games whether I am or not, so hush. So here goes..

"Furniture"


I used to be tall like a tree
Ever winding limbs extending
Colorful to see
Bending in the wind whistling
I was holding the sky
I was on the top of the world
I was so close I didn't need to fly
But I cradled thoughts of love like a girl
I tried to be strong when he came that day
To chop me down at the waist
I tried to tell him to wait
But he destroyed me in haste
Such a beautiful creature
I trusted too much to see
He just wanted a piece of furniture
I just wanted what I thought he could be
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"Hesitate"


Breathe in contempt
But try not to feel the burn
They'll always think they're exempt
They're never going to learn
I'm bleeding for your mistakes
Trying to balance the scale
Failing, falling on to the rakes
Your words that impale
You're crushing me to feel strong
I'm weak and worn but not through
The love you've held back so long
Has to burn you too
And you must feel alone
Crying in the dark
You'll continue to roam
Trying to cut out your heart
Call me in the wind
I promise I will hear
That love you wont lend
That was your biggest fear
You'll kick me when I'm down
But I'm alive
Your feelings you will drown
But I will thrive
And you can tell me as many lies
I will know your lonesome state
It will be your demise
If you continue to hesitate
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"Anyway"


I'm thinking tonight
About seeing you soon
Nothing feels more right
Than to be in the same room
I feel like home is in your arms
Hold me tight, never let me go
Keep me from harm
I want to be with you forever so
Is it ok if I never leave you?
Is it ok if I decide to breathe you?
Is it ok if I decide I need you?
Because I really do

I'm just thinking about how it will be
To feel your hand in mine again
And knowing some day, I see
This is never going to end
I knew as soon as I heard your voice
The things that you hold dear
That it would forever be my choice
To always have you near
So is it ok if I never leave you?
Is it ok if I just want to stay?
Is it ok if I always love you?
Because I promise to anyway
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Ok, so..I'm off again for now...to do what, I don't know. Feel free to leave your thoughts or news or whatever strikes your fancy (as long as you keep it at least PG-13.) I hope all is well with everyone and that the weather quits being gloomy soon. Oh well, the gloom makes it easier to see in the dark, how fun. Take care. Later.

// posted by Laura @ 2:22 AM 0 comments